Thursday, 13 August 2009
Tuesday, 7 July 2009
Wednesday, 3 June 2009
I think the title above is just perfect and sufficient to explain how I feel today. We’ve recorded 6 songs yesterday, and I think I did fine, no gross error. But today is a completely different story. We planned to start at 9.00 am, but the power was off and Ino’ father was late as well. All these problems cost me and tessa half an hour of waiting. An hour for k kiky. Ino arrived on time, just as the power came back. Lucky him…
I knew this would happen. My partiture for the five songs that I’m supposed to play today is just not possible for me to master. Tessa doesn’t have any changes for her partiture, hers is simpler. K kiky made mine THAT hard not because I’m any better than Tessa in playing the violin. Don’t know why… am still wondering why??
I messed up the whole thing. We kept on repeating the same song over and over. While, i kept on doing the same mistakes!!! I don’t know what has gotten over me. Seems like I lost my abilities to play violin and my creative writing. Just read what I have wrote here. Everything is so boring. Even I’m not interested in my own story. It feels hard to express my feelings, for the last two days, with words.
All I know is that I’m having a breakdown. The last two days feel gloomy. I lost my self-confident. I tried my best and I practiced but nothing helps. The knowledge that this is my contribution for the church makes everything feels worse, cause I want to give something perfect for the church. Conclusion: I’m dissapointed with myself.
Today is the third of June. Also the second day for me being in a recording studio. When I played in Kampial church on last Easter Vigil, there was a German watching us. He was one of the people that attended the mass. The next day, he went to Father Venus and said that the choir was excellent. He gave 2000 euros, as a donation for the renovation of the church. In addition, he told the choir to make an album and he’ll sell this album in
Thursday, 14 May 2009
yesterday, i had my paper 2-math exam. i think i did okay. this morning, i had my chemistry practical. it was a mess!!! hixhix.. i was confused whether to answer Cu- or Fe+ and i ended up writing everything in a hurry bcause there was not enough time. tomorrow i'll have my paper 2-english exam! just passing english is enough for me. getting A or B is out of the wish list..
oh yeah, i never mentioned in this blog that i got the "best in the world award-first place" for my indonesian exam that i took last october. my price was a 50 pounds amazon voucher. i havent think of what to spend with that. might be some books or dresses or shoes. it's just sad that we cant turn that into cash. before,i didn't even know there was that kind of award. i regarded it as a bonus.together with me, janice got the same price for third place in art, laksmini and je-in both got them for third place in indonesian. mr james told us that we are on the school website, but i havent take a look at it. my mom was asking if we'll get a certificate or something, but mr james thinks that the amazon voucher is the only thing we get. pity...